What's life without you .....fat?

What's life without being fat? I am sure that it will be marvellous. I really wish to lose all the weight that I have gained over the years. but i seemed to be addicted to binging. I need a good method to tackle that. Just 2 days ago, Mother was telling me to be careful of what I eat and it is time to lose the bad eating habit as well as the excess weight. Father used to say Eat only when you are hungry and eat only small portion. Wise advice. I think it is time to heed that advice.

Today is Saturday, the supposed indulgence day, no doubt. I ate alot today. A museli bar, one plate of grilled salty sotong and about half a mud pie for lunch, then some fruits and sotong ball soup and finally tons of KFC. My stomach bursting now. I feel so terrible after binging, both mentally and physically , but why do I still continue the way i am . Do I not love myself to exempt myself from such torture? The most important thing for me to do right now is to love myself more. and more.